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Tuesday, June 26, 2012

Gambar: ikhlaskanlah, redhakanlah, hargailah...


Sunday, June 24, 2012

Kisah hati : " handsome? Heh, utk cuci mata jer... "

Assalamu`alaikum..

      yeahh... Tetiba member tnye saya, "ain, who are you prefer to be yours? Handsome or wealthy? " then, sambil senyum mcm kerang busuk saya jawab... "none" ... Ofcozla member ni pelik... Then, sy tmbah lagi, "none, none of them. Because im only consider people,man that willing to accept me as I am, and Im willing to be with him... It's meaningless if I can't sincerely to be with him even though if he's the most perfect guy I ever met..  It's a lie if im not interested with both of them, but somehow finally I'll choose someone that belong in my heart sincerely..."

    member aku diam... Dia tanya lagi.. "how you gonna find 'him' ? Or have you ever meet 'him' ? "  aku terdiam. Apa aku nak jawab nie.. Then, with calm mind , "later you'll know.. It's happen naturally..." fuuhh... Taking a deep breath...

    "... to be honest, yes.. I've met the one that I can accept with sincerely of my heart...  But sometimes it doesnt mean he's mean for you. As mine (story), it seems he is written for someone else... For someone that I call a friend... Seems both of them (cant continue my story.. Tears in my eyes) ... and both of them doesnt know 'bout my feeling (I'm da one who match them together. Yes, I do. I'm hurting myself! It was not their false..) and im hoping they will never know about it, forever... "

   She look into my eyes. Deeply.. She holds my hand and smiles " I know your kindness, but I never knew you really done it. And I can see the sincerity in your eyes. You had found someone that you love with sincerely. Then, You will find someone who love you sincerely, soon.. Very soon.. "

   She started to ask me 'bout 'him', 'her' , and why Im doing it. Well, she's such a good friend, very good listener. And somehow I feel relieve after talking with her... Terima kasih, KAWAN... :-)

  

Saturday, June 23, 2012

Bola oh bola : (Germany vs Greece) vs Operations Management

And the winner is Germany for sure... :-P



Wednesday, June 20, 2012

Kisah hati : sudah ckup2 sudah

Assalamualaikum...

    for the first time I was able to use blogger from my mobile phone..

    hurm... Whatsup dis time, huh? Well... Today was the hardest time of my life... Today I realize that I was 'bertepuk sebelah tangan...' yeah... Broke my heart a lot... So, from now on I gonna put a big FULLSTOP on my FEELINGS TOWARDS HIM... Yeahh... Seriously... Even it hurt me a lot...

    my heart broke a part, and dis time its like ruin pumpkin... Cant be fix anymore... Why? Because now I realize im nothing to him.. Duhh.. Im not his type...

Mungkin dah tiba masanya aku laksanakan janji dulu itu... Mr. Rigt-be-not,  maybe you are the last man who able steal my heart away... There's no name after to you... (if you read my post prviously, u'll understand better.. Sorry for being too dramatic)

P/s: masa utk aku tunggu someone yg terima aku seadanya dah tamat... I'm gonna change myself (jd kurus and cantik, as my mom wants).and if that happen, i'll forever alone... Because i'll only accept someone who loves me now...love me,myself.. Not my looks yg xsbrape..  :'(  ya Allah, thanks for everything... I love you... :)

Tuesday, June 19, 2012

Gambar : Gambar kelas sem 2 ... teeheehee...





p/s: gambar merungkai seribu perkataan.. seribu makna...berjuta rasa...=)

Kursus Kahwin: Saja jer pergi... Calon belum ada... =)

Assalamu`alaikum...

       YEZZAAA!!!  I was !! no kidding! hey, siapa cakap kursus kahwin untuk mereka2 yang nak dirikan rumah tangga jer... for me, it's only a type of  majlis ilmu. sebab tu saya pergi.

      but, somehow masa balik tu... saya sempat senyum as a friend to him masa otw keluar LT5.  Memula, dia tak notice saya senyum but after a second, dia senyum balik... that's enough to fix my day... teeheehee...

itu baru 1st day!

2nd day...

    ARGHH...! bangun lambat...! yezza...! nielah bahana tido lepas subuh... akibatnya, kami terlepas satu slot... and member2 yg dok jadi ajk memang perli baik punya. gossh!!!   GGrrrr... siap cakap "tak payah susah2 cari mana nak sign, cari je yang kosong..." ha...kan dah kena... terbaik dia perli...
masa slot petang (lepas zohor), tak tahu kenapa but i notice ada mata2 yg duk memandang masa saya masuk dlm LT5... (eh, aku nampak pelik ke ape? alamak, tak selesanya...) bila abis je slot, terus nak balik... okay,saya tak nampak dia... then, saya terus ambil roti yg disediakan kat pintu and then terus keluar...

    then, i turn back... Gosh! he was there!  then tak semena-mena I was starring at him for too long and too frequently!!! somehow, dunno dia noticed ke tak... TAPI dia pun pandang juga... cuma confuse, dia pandang saya ke, or  ma frenz. sebab ma frens perasan dia pandang2...  (takkanlah aku nak cakap 'dia' pandang aku...! tu masuk bakul angkat sendiri namanya! ) hmmm... entahlah... tapi, rasanya 'dia' pandang kawan@housemate saya kot... sebabnya kawan saya tu cantik... (okay, heart-broke balik... )       

    tak apalah, asalkan dia bahagia... =)   
        
                Okay! back to da topic!   It was held 2 days (16-17 June 2012 ) from 8.30am `till 4.30pm. phew! exhausted surely! macam2 ilmu yg diperoleh... saya tengok, ramai yang pergi kursus kahwin ni alim2 orang2nya... terasa kerdil je diri ini... huk3... and somehow, saya teringin nak jadi sebahagian daripada mereka... Ya Allah, berikanlah rahmat dan hidayah-Mu kepadaku... Semoga aku senantiasa dalam redhaMu...

Okaylah...dah subuh... mari solat...!

p/s: =)

Wednesday, June 13, 2012

Rahsia hati : Ya Allah, kenapa aku berdebar nie???

Assalamu`alaikum...

    Okay, sekarang dah pukul 4.16am and i'm still not sleep yet!!! dah la tengah hari nie ada test (mandarin public speaking) ... adusss....! and guess what, i'm not prepared yet!!! masak la aku kali nie... and yet still, sebenarnya ada sesuatu yg mengganggu saya malam nie... tetiba hati nie rasa berdebar tak menentu!!!!!!!

     Nie semua gara-gara saya stalk someone... (dia la... sapa lagi... adusss....) tapi tak semena-mena debaran tu semacam... ntah... terus saya log out facebook and stop stalking his blog... but somehow, SAMPAI SEKARANG MASIH BERDEBAR... (ntah pape ntah...)

    ahhh... gasak la.. yg penting mandarin nie ha... WAA...... camne nieh xsettle2 nie... masak2... doakan saya, eh? kui3... otak mcm dh masuk air dh nie... sabo jela.. silap2 esok buat spontaneous-speaking kang trkejut lak laoshi tu nanti... huhuhu... okay lah... nak sambung study mandarin...

Assalamu`alaikum... =)

Tuesday, June 12, 2012

Lara Hati : Mengapa aku sanggup begitu?

Assalamu`alaikum ...

          Okay, masa untuk penerangan...! maybe ade yg tertanya-tanya asal lah aku boleh sanggup ketepikan feeling  aku demi orang lain (eh, ade ke yg nak tahu...? haha...perasannya... ~lalala~ )... the answer is simple. What you give you'll get back. Lagipun kebahagiaan ialah nikmat kehidupan yg diberikan oleh Allah kepada kita. Kalau kebahagiaan itu milik kita, pasti Allah akan berikan.... dan kita tak perlu gusar akan hal itu... Kerana kebahagiaan itu pasti akan datang jua...

            Okay, aku akan buka sikit cerita psal 'the girl' . actually, dia baru lepas dipermainkan oleh a guy yg sgt2 la tak berhati perut. Nak tahu kenapa saya cakap macam tu? sebab dah banyak kali dia buat ( i mean, dah banyak gadis dia permainkan). yg girl nie plak, jnis hati lembut. dipendekkan crita, girl nie frust sebab diperlakukan sebegitu rupa... (and i believe until now she still frustrated with that damn guy). So, dipendekkan crita lagi, oleh kerana aku tak nak tengok dia sedih, aku pun dengan pandainya 'mengkeneng-kenengkan' dia dgn 'my mr.' (EH, SUKATI KO JE KAN MENGAKU DIE TU MR. KO... MASUK GUNI ANGKAT SNDIRI NMPAK... hahaha...) dan tak sangka plak akhirnya melekat... so, akhirnya...melepaslah aku...

     Tapi jujur, aku ikhlas... sebabnya, aku cuma nak tgk diorg happy... i mean both of them... pasal aku plak, hmmm... nothing to be talk about. FULLSTOP...  So, harap everything's clear now... 

      Semua orang ada kisah tersendiri... and this is part of me... thanks for reading this... thankz for being part of me... 

     Okaylah... mamai suda... subuh sudah mari...(dah solat dah pon!) 
it's 6.35am rite now... so, gud morning... have a nice day... make a smile to the world, and the world will smile back to you... peace ya...!!! 

p/s: Frust itu FULLSTOP,  MEROYAN itu penuh dengan TANDA SOAL dan KOMA... Jika FULLSTOP, kita boleh sambung balik tak kiralah dengan cerita yg sama or cerita yg baru... tapi kalau TANDA SOAL, nak sambung lain pun susah selagi tak selesai... kadang2 sampai boleh buat jadi KOMA...

~ pabila si Ainata sudah bermadah... lalalala....~

Sunday, June 10, 2012

Dinner : Football Fantasy ... Amboi, enjoy sakan na...

Assalamu`alaikum...

          Okay, as I said before I'm having a dinner with Bismark's (Business Marketing) family...  Theme that been used is Football Fantasy, means we wore jersey to the dinner...! sound simple, rite? but, some people said less is more ... hahaha... whatsoever... but seriously, it the most simple dinner I'd ever seen, EVER! 

           Here are some picca i grab from others...

sheena, kak bell

mas, zaty zeca, cimah
hasif, Jayfree
syifie, musz (blakang : Ekin, Shakir, Zull )


Jayfree, Iema, WanRasyidah, Ieka, Atie, Bariah(zati), aku, ekin

shakir, shidi, fariz

depan : perk-nan, man pingu, mierul (birthday boy), zull...
tengah : musz, syifie, alif
blakang : Jayfree

dah mcm retissss...!

nie la muka2 yg prank birthday boy... alahai ciannyer... hahaha



Saturday, June 9, 2012

Dinner : Malam yg 'dingin' ...

Assalamu`alaikum...

       Okay, hari nie (5 June 2012 ) i'm having a dinner under business marketing course...  Actually I was expecting tonight is one of the blast moment of my life.. but somehow, it's turning reflect on me... Start drpd sebelum pergi dinner, my hijab is ruined, seat lain2 dgn member, and the worst part is I kena joget ala2 Wonder Girls lagu nobody...  Sumpah aku malu giler... Ya Allah...  Rasa nak mencarut pn ade sengalllllll.....!!!! 

        Tapi yang lebih melukakan hati saya sebenarnya bila 'dia' seolah-olah menjauhi saya... I know I'm not salah pandang because he seems like he mean it ! Really2 bleeding inside... Tak pelah... Mungkin itu hint utk aku menjauhkan diri or buang rasa hati aku kt dia... SUMPAH BUKAN SENANG!! sakit tahu tak??? Lagipun, 'dia' dh ade girl lain kan... dgn aku plak, mmg xpandang la... I'm not he's taste and compared to 'her', I'm a LOOSER... Tears inside my heart right now... Killing me softly... It's killing me softly... 


       KALAULAH aku boleh padam terus perasaan aku terhadap kamu, sudah lama aku buang jauh2...!! tak pelah... terima kasih sebab bagi aku 'hint' ... kau tahu tak akulah yg selalu perhatikan kamu dr sem 1 tanpa kau sedar??? adakah kau tahu aku tahu birthday kamu dari sem 1 (2011) dan tak sabar nak wish sampai aku SENGAJA wish DUA HARI LEBIH AWAL??? kamu tahu tak, betapa aku menoreh hatiku sendiri setiap kali aku 'merapatkan' kamu dan 'dia' .... Kamu tak akan pernah tahu ... kerana aku tak mahu hancurkan hati 'dia', dan aku ingin lihat kamu bahagia...  Walaupun aku derita, perasaan aku terdera, aku lega dapat tengok kamu bahagia... walaupun dari jauh... Ini bukan salah sesiapa, ini hanya dugaan yg harus aku terima... Mungkin, aku telah ditakdirkan menjadi 'penghubung pertalian' antara kau dan dia... ~ mungkin kita tak bersama takdirnya, tak mengapa asal kau bahagia... I'm sorry but I love you ... ~

       Saya bukan nak tagih simpati... saya tahu segala masalah seharusnya diadukan kepada Yang Esa... tapi, saya juga manusia biasa yang perlukan sesuatu cara untuk melepas rasa...  Maaf andai melampaui batasan...     









 *kurrr... *kurrrr.... 
        
                 Okay, tadi jgk ade buat prank kt Amierul, my classmate... kesian die kena air jagung... hahaha...(padahal air jagung tu rumah aku yg supply...giler ja-at ... hak3...) happy birthday ye abg@adik kecik! May Allah bless you...  

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